Nowadays our lives are on display. We package ourselves as these sparkly little beings who have it all figured out. Our selfies and inspirational quotes attached to them allow us to be our own self-made celebrities and life-coaches. Our posts being a beacon for envy and an opportunity to make us feel good about ourselves.
I’ve been guilty of this for years, ever since social media entered the public domain I’ve been selecting moments from my life that would make me feel significant, all the while making others feel insecure.
My life is fucking fantastic, I love every filthy frustrating second of it. What I don’t like, is when someone says “I want your life.” in response to my pictures and posts. I don’t want my life to make others feel insecure about theirs. If I’m going to share my life with you I want to share all the gritty details, my life isn’t made up of glamorous road trips, views from mountain tops, and beautiful paddling adventures…those are the highlights…but this is my life
I can go weeks without checking my bank account because it gives me anxiety.
I’ve spent my life taking more than I’ve been giving.
I’ve cheated and I’ve lied.
I’ve got cellulite on my ass.
I LOVE laying in bed all day and watching movies.
Sometimes I drink because I think I can’t have fun otherwise.
I have a tattoo on my chest that I absolutely hate and do everything I can to keep it covered.
I’m attracted to both men and women.
I’ll choose paying for a wild adventure over paying for health insurance.
I’m insecure about not finishing college.
I’ve had run ins with Collections more than once.
I want to write for a living but don’t think I’m good enough.
But FINALLY when I look in the mirror I see ME and fuck I love that person. I choose to celebrate all of it. And I am making a conscious effort to change the things I need to and to learn to love the things I can’t change.
I choose to give just as much or more than I take.
I promise to SHOW UP!
I’ll choose being painfully broke in the bank than down-and-out in life experience.
I’ll swim naked without worrying if someone sees the cellulite or the soft belly.
I will stop giving my attention to my phone, facebook, and instagram and start giving it to those that I love.
I don’t care if you follow, like, or share my shit.
I choose to not drink for six months and practice being 100% me.
I choose to make eye contact with the person taking my order, bagging my groceries, or walking past me.
I choose to be unapologetically me.
I choose to stop avoiding conflict and start speaking my mind.
I choose to be open and honest.
I choose to never give up espresso!
I promise to stop avoiding people I know in order to avoid small talk.
I will feel everything and not try to portray my life as anything other than what it is.